Who will decide?

What is life?

Never ending quest to find what is right or wrong!

How do we know what is right?

And who stops us and says, careful, that is wrong.

Trying to figure out right and wrong is like an unsolvable maze.

A step forward with the thought that this seems like the right thing to do and the very next moment, the world is upside down, ohh or may be, we are upside down. And then there are times when you tip toe to avoid the slightest error and all you land up is in a great mess.

And sometimes what looks like a jumbled up picture turns out to be perfectly balanced chaos.

So we are again back to square one, WHAT IS RIGHT AND WHAT IS WRONG? And WHO DECIDES WHAT IS RIGHT OR WRONG?

Life is a cumulative result of our choices. Some choices we appraise ourselves of and some we don’t even want to acknowledge. The good ones give happiness that loses its spark but the bad one’s give guilt that probably lasts a lifetime.

We get praised for our choices that turned out great. But we never are applauded for the bad ones. We forget at times that, it’s hitting the rock bottom that makes one soar higher up. Nobody ever flew higher than cloud 9 (pun intended). 

An average person makes as little as 15 decisions a day, sticking to the trivial ones like bathing, eating, working, etc. Some decisions we make at spinal level. But they do still count. With time we get used to making the harder ones too, but then there are ones that leave us jolted. 

I’m a 30 year old human, and having made one lakh sixty four thousand two hundred and fifty choices till date (15 choices/day on an average), I still find myself meddling with my own head. It’s truly said, behind every calm face, there’s a mind that’s constantly at war. As you move ahead in life, the choices you have to make only keep growing. It’s like a video game, every next level will demand you to gear up. 

Before beginning to write this, I had too many questions myself. What am I feeling exactly? What do I want to write? What is it that I’m trying to pen down? What is that…. (A long pause, but no words to end the question) You see, this is what I mean. We’re all confused. No matter how much we try to pull the facade, but there’s an unsettling quest inside all of us.

After having these unflagging thoughts, and some unsettling emotions, all I want to say is, it’s okay to continue the quest. It’s okay not to know what is right and what is not, straight away. It’s okay to have the luck to have made the right choice but it is also brave to have made the wrong choice and then continuing to make it right. Life isn’t a Google search and the answers will not appear on the screen within seconds. It’s okay to feel lost. It’s okay to not know. We’re all in the same boat. Nobody has it all figured out at the same time. 

So, don’t be afraid to make choices. May it be right or wrong, you’ll definitely have something to take from it.